before and after

I had started to realize that I viewed my life in two parts: before we lost our child, and after we lost our child.

Everything in my world was shaken to the core. My ability to make decisions had gone out the window. I didn't trust anything I said or did to be a part of God's plan for me.

You see, before our loss I was sure.
I was sure about adoption.
I was sure about a sibling group.
I was sure about going through foster care.
I was sure about being ok with not being pregnant, or having a biological child.
I was sure.

After our loss I was uncertain.
I was uncertain that I wanted to adopt.
I was uncertain that I wanted a sibling group.
I was uncertain about going through foster care.
I was uncertain if I ever wanted to become pregnant again, or have a biological child.

Before and after.

The truth is, my life is partitioned into two parts. I was just wrong about the event in which my life was divided.

If you want to read the rest, please go over to Held where I am guest posting today.

1 comment:

  1. I read this posting in full- it is very interesting to think about. Life before and after Christ. It definitely changes someone and gives a new purpose and meaning to life. And it is interesting to think that as much as we know Christ, we can always grow closer! There will never be an 'end' to our growth. Anyways, thanks for the post!


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