I am not one of those worry-free, carefree, live life one day at a time, doesn't care about consequences kind of people.

But you have probably already figured that out, smartypants that you are!

I believe my personality type stems from a lot of things. Of course, one being that I am God-designed. Another being that I am the oldest of four siblings and have always felt the need to act like the oldest, if you know what I mean. I am bossier than most by nature, but also viciously loyal. I like to be in control, but I am a very good leader. For each set of negative characteristics of my personality, there is a whole host of positives as well.

My pastor's favorite word is balance, and I definitely think it applies to this area of my life.

One of the most positive things (so I have been told, I am not trying to pat myself on the back here) about my personality is that I care deeply about people. I don't do shallow, surface level relationships. I have been there and done that and all it did was bring me a whole lot of hurt and wasted time. Since then, God has molded me and taught me a lot about relationships and people in general.

I don't do artificial. I don't do superficial.

I do real.

And real means having to say and do hard things sometimes. Real means confrontation and I hate confrontation. But I do it. Because it's biblical. Because it's necessary. Because I love my friends/family/husband too much not too.

The negative aspect of this lovely personality trait that I have is that it brings me a lot of anxiety. I deal with anxiety a lot more than I let on to even my closest friends. My anxiety affects me the same way each time. If I feel it coming on, it's already to late to try to stop it. Once it hits me, there is no going back, there is no knowing how long it will last. What I do know is that my heart will pound out of it's chest. I will not be able to sit still for long periods of time. I *tmi* will use the bathroom several more times a day than necessary. My hands shake. I cold sweat. And the thoughts run rampant.

I have learned from my many bouts of anxiety (some may call them panic attacks but I truly don't believe mine are severe enough to warrant that definition.) that the best thing for me to do is to get in The Word. To sit down with my Bible and pour myself into it, and to let it empty me of all the uneasiness and fill me up with the promises God has for us.

I don't know that there was much point to this post except to let you in on a little of what I am feeling right now. I really can't share what is going on in my life right now, but let's just say it's big and it's scary and it's proving to come with a lot more anxiety than normal.

So what are you tactics for decreasing anxiety? What are some of your favorite scriptures or books of the Bible in general?

My favorite...

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you." - Philippians 4:4-9


  1. A very good reminder for me today. Thank you. :)

    I'm sorry for the anxiety you are currently facing. You are never far from my thoughts these days. Love you and praying for you often.

  2. That is my chapter for anxiety too.

    I guess the thing that also helps me shift my focus from fear/anxiety, is to look at the root of it. Since God is love and perfect love casts out all fear - the fear/anxiety is either from the enemy or from me.

    And I would rather just be mad at the enemy, or determined not to do his work for him.

    God has created you - given you this season of trusting. And nothing happens that is outside of His control.

    I love you and am continuing to pray. And I owe you an email :)

  3. Oh sweetie. We have a great deal in common.

    Continuing to hold you up in prayer during this anxious season. Praying that God gives you rest and peace in him. You're not alone. Remember that.
    Praying for your heart.

  4. Matthew 26, 27, 33:
    "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow, or reap, or store up in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
    33 But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

    I struggle greatly with anxiety - and verse 27 is a constant reminder to me. Thank you for sharing. I will pray for you. I don't want to sound bad, but it's nice to hear someone else admit to the same struggles, I often feel alone in my anxiety (and a bit crazy). Thanks for being so honest and open.

  5. O sweet girl ... I have so been there and still at times enter into "anxiety". These are two verses that have helped me along the way ...

    Psalm 62:5-8 & Isaiah 46:3-5;8-11

    I was going to type them out, but then I thought I should make you go to the Word to read them ;)

    Pray for you and Eric often!

  6. I'm sorry your dealing with this Heather.I suffered from Panic Attack disorder since I was 9 years old all the way up until college. I have thus learned to control it through the Lord. Took me a while, ha, but it has been controlled. Not that I am saying you have a disorder or anything but anxiety can be debilitating and exhausting. I clung to a lot of verses through high school and college, here is one of them:

    Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. -Deuteronomy 31:6

    Another thing I learned was that I would tell God that I was giving him my fear. That I was handing it over to Him....then two days later I would be back struggling with the sin of fear once again. Only to realize that I never fully gave it up to Him...i know harder than it sounds. I mean it took me years to get over it. But just know that you are going through this for a reason. God will be glorified through it, He has been through mine. I cant tell you how many others I have ministered to that have dealt with being anxious for any reason that I have been able to empathize with. But cling to this verse the verses of Truth that your other commenter's have given you and by all means hand it over to Him. He can handle it.

  7. I like to go grab a cup of coffee with friends like you and pour out my soul. You help me put things in perspective and pray for me. Wanna get together?

  8. oh, i feel you on that anxiety...
    i love that scripture...hold fast to it, dear friend.

  9. "Be still and know that I am God."


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