It's been hitting me hard for a while now.
When we first started going to Costa Rica a few years ago, we didn't know just how much of our hearts it would steal and keep. When we had finally settled into the thought of never getting pregnant, we just assumed Costa Rica would continue to be a part of our lives. Even when we decided adoption was our path, we knew we'd be getting older children and they would be perfectly fine at the grandparents for a week while we were there. When we lost our first baby, Costa Rica was the balm to my heart that only God could have provided.
Not going to Costa Rica has never seemed like an option before. Like I have said so many times before, please don't take this like I am ungrateful for this pregnancy. However, overseas missions seemed like our future (we have seriously discussed becoming missionaries in a Central American country) or at least something that we would continue to pursue.
I know I'll go back one day. But today, when it is rainy in my town, I wish that rain was hitting my face on the mountain of Grano de Oro.
"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven" - Ecclesiastes 3:1
Sorry you are missing what sounds like a beautiful 'home away from home' that has both touched your heart and been touched by you.
ReplyDeleteI pray you do return and that God reveals to you His almighty plan for your family of 3.
I guess I don't see why you can't still do overseas missions even with little ones. One of my college friends and her husband moved to Uganda with a two month old! Never say never! :)
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ReplyDeleteYou are right in that we can still do overseas missions. However, the place that we go in Costa Rica isn't really conducive for a baby...at least not if I want to work in the capacity that I have before while there. And if God calls us to missions, we will go, no hesitation!
That's good to hear! :) I hope God opens doors for you to go back sometime soon, even if it's not directly back to where you were before. :)
DeleteI know how you feel, Heather. I too miss Costa Rica so much. Congratulations on your pregnancy!! Praise God for what he has done. His timing is perfect!
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